Death

I'll be honest, I've been mildly freaking out about death lately. I don't know if I'll go quite as far as saying it's a mid-life crisis since I haven't purchased a Corvette or left my wife for a 19 year old Swedish girl. But, it's definitely been on my mind.

It all started a few weeks ago when I started watching this crazy Earth to Mars show on the Discovery Channel. It's a bit crazy that this show planted this death seed in my head since it had absolutely nothing to do with death...just the possibility of sustaining life on Mars in the next century or so.

However, while watching this show and thinking about life on Mars, I started to think to myself, "how would people living on Mars impact Heaven? Would God need to have another Mars baby Jesus to watch over that land? Is that possible?"

To make this even stranger, I'm not religous AT ALL so I have no idea why these religious thoughts filled my head. All that I know is it freaked me out a bit. I started to think about death and not the mystifying (might I say "happy") death where you see a white light and all of your passed relatives greet you at Heaven’s Gates. Nah, I'm thinking darkness and then that's it. You're done. No happy endings. No after life. No reincarnation. No Revelations. No anything. Perhaps similar to the ending of the Sopranos (though I’ve never watched the show so I can’t say for sure).

It's really hard for me to wrap my head around this concept since I really want to believe that there is more to us than just this life. But, the more I think about religion, the more I believe it was just a manmade mechanism of control. I don't mean that in the negative connotation of the word, but control nonetheless (i.e., Ten Commandments gives us a moral compass to live by/prevent anarchy). I digress, sorry, didn't want to get all agnostic here - but that is obviously adding fuel to my fire.

I guess the point of these ramblings is to say I appreciate life a bit more nowadays since this may be my only chance at living. I don’t sweat my sports teams losing as much anymore (it’s just a game, right?) and I try not to let work days and weeks fly by so swiftly (why does life go by faster as you age?). I’m hoping this works or else I just may end up buying that Corvette…. Holla!